There’s nothing holding me back!

It’s been a crazy few weeks. I have been going through many uncertainties and they finally added up and brought me down! If you follow my blog, you know I have talked about Depression and Anxiety many times before. It is a part of what makes me whole, as strange as it sounds. It is part of my life and millions of others. If I could change one thing in the world, I would change the stigma that follows mental health. It doesn’t mean you’re crazy, doesn’t mean you are weak. It simply means your battle in life is a little different than others, but you are just as whole as any other person. I have recently been reminded of something I once knew, and it got lost in the dark. I cannot control the fact that I have Major Depressive Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder or Social Anxiety. But I DO control my surroundings and how hard I want to fight against them.

No one is going to fight the fight for me(you). I have plenty of support, but ultimately, I (you) control my (your) success. When you have Depression, it is so easy to fall into the darkness and give up on yourself. When you are falling into that place, you must recognize it and be able to overcome it. Allow yourself to feel, but then stand up and fight. If you stay in the darkness too long, you lose sight of everything. As I was driving (where I do most of my thinking) I realized something. ~Your dreams only become unimaginable when you stop believing in them~

I was recently having a conversation with a friend who is going through the motions of life and feeling down about certain things. And they asked, “Why are we so broken?” My response “Because we are destined for something magnificent and it’s not going to just be handed to us.” Sometimes I need to do a better job listening to my own advice! (who am I kidding, don’t we all?)

The whole point of this post is to remind you that you are in charge of your life, no matter what obstacles lay in front of you. It is your destiny to overcome the trials and tribulations of your life so that you may reap your glories.

So my friends, followers, here’s to not giving up and chasing your dreams!

  

                           

The biggest adventure you can take is to live the life of your dreams - Oprah

Hello, Everyone! Sorry to be late with my post this week (I feel like I start every post like this). So much has been going on lately. I have so much to write about on my new blog but wanted to start here first. This week they kind of speak to one another. This week I’ve decided to talk about making your dreams into realities.

When I grow up I want to: Become a lawyer. Become a surgeon. Join the Army. Be a teacher. Become a flight attendant. Go to space. Work in the entertainment industry. Travel the world.

Those are things that at one time or another I wanted to do, things I found myself dreaming of constantly. Some of them I will probably not make into a reality, but they’ll always be important to me. Others I have taken steps toward in some ways.

Just recently, a fire was ignited inside of me reminding of an old dream. And so were the fears that stopped me from ever pursuing it in the first place. The difference is now I have a tad more life experience to combat those fears! Do not ever let fear stop you from wanting to do something. If you have a dream, and it is important to you, then reach for it! Do whatever needs to be done to try and make your dreams into realities. You may not succeed, but you won’t have any regrets about not having tried! I interviewed (with the same airline) twice to become a flight attendant. I put every ounce of hope into, and I was not selected either time. But I tried, and I might try sometime in the future. While I haven’t traveled the world, I have traveled. I’ve been to and lived in many parts of the United States and have been able to visit amazing places. I never wanted to be the person who never left their hometown/state. I’ve known since I was young that I wanted to go out and see the world. So, while I’m no neurosurgeon or astronaut, I am following some of my dreams.

Never let fear control you. You should be scared. “If you aren’t scared, you aren’t paying attention” – Dr. Miranda Bailey. But don’t let it hold you back! Stop telling yourself you can’t do things because you are: too old, don’t have enough money, have too many responsibilities etc. When it comes to going for your dream, only you are stopping yourself! If money is an issue (I know it can be for many dreams) start saving! Skip Starbucks once a week! Throw your change in a jar! Everything is possible if you are willing to work for it.

Dozens of successful people had to fail hundreds of times before claiming their glory. Some people have reached their dreams in their youth while some much later in life. Never stop chasing your dreams.

“It can be hard

It can be so hard

But you gotta live right now

You got everything to give right now”

Goals and Mission Statements!

So I want to say sorry for not posting the last few Sunday's as I promised I would. However, due to a recent challenge, I will be blogging, as promised, every Sunday!

The reason I haven't is mostly due to work/school. As most of you know I was out of work for a while and was waiting to start a new journey here in Utah. It has kept me busy over the past 4 weeks, but I am officially out of training. My supervisor developed a challenge between all the employees and leadership team to develop a goal and a short and long term mission statement to go with it. I absolutely love this challenge and am so encouraged that my supervisor is engaged in developing us not only at work, but in our personal lives as well. 

Here is my goal and my short and long term mission statements. 


Goal: I will be more adventurous by exploring/experiencing at least 1 new place/thing (hiking trail, restaurant, etc.) weekly, over the next 4 months.

Short Term Mission Statement: Prioritize spare time in order to create opportunities for new experiences

Long Term Mission Statement: Always seek new journeys, welcome unfamiliar experiences and to remind myself that “We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm and adventure. There is no end to the adventures that we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open.” – Nehru 

This challenge at work will take place from 8/1-12/1. So for the next four months I will work on experiencing new adventures each week. I plan on measuring my goal via blog! I am going to create a new blogger site for this! Please keep on the look out fore more blogs both here and at 

                https://alwaysescapetheordinary.blogspot.com

      Thank you to everyone who reads! please feel free to share either of my blogs with others 

There is fiction in the space between, The lines on your page of memories

Whoa! So I haven't posted in so long and I do apologize. I am turning over many new leaves and one will be right here! I plan to post a new blog every Sunday! (feel free to hold me to that!) 

"Where you Movin?" I said, "Onto better things"
      Most all of you are aware that I finally made it out of Florida! I've only tried like 5 times since moving there in December of 2012. It was one hell of a journey but I finally found my new home. UTAH! I've been here for a month now and just absolutely love it. I miss my Floridian friends deeply, but this is something I have become accustomed to. Leaving NH for Tennessee in 2010 was extremely tough. I called NH/MA home for 19 years! I had to leave some of my best friends, and of course family. And then I made amazing friends, many that I now consider family, during my stint in the Bible Belt. And spending 4.5 years in Florida, working 5 jobs, I made so many amazing friendships. I don't see myself leaving here anytime soon, but I know someday I will and I will leave some amazing friends behind. It gets a little easier each time. I cherish the time I spend with people in the places I live and know that I have made lifelong friendships all across the map! To all of you reading this, I miss you, wherever you are! If you're seeing this, then you are a friend I've made along the way or family of course and you have likely made some type of impact in my life or maybe I have in yours.

“There comes a day when you realise turning the page is the best feeling in the world, because you realise there's so much more to the book than the page you were stuck on.”
     Yes I just used a Zayn Malik quote, so what? 😜. So I have been out of work since before moving here but I finally start this Monday! When I started looking out here I decided I was only going to apply to healthcare related jobs. I told myself I would only resort to call center or hospitality jobs if I didn't get anywhere with healthcare. A friend told me about a company that her dad works for and told me to take a look into it (thanks Kacie!). So I did. And I knew almost instantly that this would be a promising company to be with. I also applied for many jobs with the University of Utah Health, because that's where I really wanted to work. I ended up having a phone interview in May about 3.5 weeks before coming to Utah with ARUP,clinical and anatomic pathology reference laboratory , which happens to be  a nonprofit entity of the University of Utah. I was extremely excited and was asked to interview in person the day after we arrived in Salt Lake City. The interview went well but then the waiting game started. I finally got a call saying the full-time positions I had interviewed for were no longer available. I became extremely worried but my recruiter followed up by advising a position had become available in the lab located at the U of U Hospital. I drove to the University Hospital, and sat there waiting for my interviewers, while talking in the surroundings. I had this feeling that overcame me. I knew in that moment this is where I wanted to work. I have never wanted a job more. I went into this interview with the most confidence I'd ever had before because I wanted the job so badly. And then, the final question. "We are interviewing nearly 30 candidates for this position,(and shows me a stack of previous candidate question/responses) so why do we hire you?" And all the confidence faded away. I became nervous. I was quickly reminded of the last interview I had done with the Senior Manager of my department and his words he gave me, after telling my I got the position. He told me that I interviewed the best out of all the candidates and that he felt as though I'd been there before. I took a deep breath, I explained why I should be hired and walked out trying to be positive. 3 days later I got the call, the job was mine! But I had to still wait 3 weeks before starting. I knew it was worth the wait. So here I am, just over 24 hours away from officially starting the next chapter in my career path.

So why did I blab so much about that?
    If any of you are feeling tired, hopeless or impatient about things happening (or not happening) in your life, remember, as cliche as it is, patience is a virtue. If you really know me, you know that is hard for me to admit, I generally have very little patience. But this time it paid off. So just hold on, you'll get there!

The two most powerful warriors are patience and time- Leo Tolstoy

Please stay tuned for more post in the future!

(PS. sorry for the typos/poor grammar/structure, its nearly 4:30 AM and I should be asleep but wanted to get this out! I'll edit it tomorrow )