A lifetime of sadness...or whatever you decide to make it.

Having depression coupled with anxiety is not the easiest hand to play, but it is my hand. Most people just simply say "think positive" or "everything will be okay". If I had the ability to do that as easy as people make it come across, I wouldn't be in this situation. Often I've wondered if mental illness came with physical symptoms or markers like other diseases, if people would treat it more seriously.

One day you can be feeling the best in the world. Smiling more than you have in months. Feeling great about yourself. And then BAM! The downward spiral begins and it is FAST!

So let's stop for a minute. What was it that made you feel so great? Was it someone else praise? Was it recognition? Or a compliment maybe? Perhaps you did well at work or on an assignment for school? All of those reasons are certainly things to feel good about, however they need limits. You can not place all your happiness in those places because when they fail you, and they will, what do you have left?

Happiness must be found in ourselves before anywhere else. Allowing another person or entity to be in charge of your happiness is not healthy. As I've mentioned many times, it all starts with YOU!

I'll save my soul, save myself

Crossroads.

Which way are we to turn when faced with multiple paths. Left, right, move forward or turn around even? Each decision we make in life holds consequences. So when faced with such choices it is sometimes hard to decide which direction we should follow.

In actuality, it does not matter which path we take as long as we keep moving. If it is 9 miles of bad road, keep trucking through. Some of the greatest successes have been accomplished after many great failures. Each wrong path leads us to a new one.

The worst thing we can do is stand still.  Being nervous and cautious is natural, but fear of making the wrong choice should not discourage us from discovering new worlds.

Make choices. Follow paths. Learn from mistakes. Do not let fear hold you back. Go left. Go right. Whichever way your heart desires. Just don't stand still.

Standing at the point
The road it cross you down
What is at your back
Which way do you turn
Who will come to find you first
Your devils or your gods

All you folks think you run my life
Say I should be willing to compromise
I say all you demons go back to hell
I'll save my soul save myself

Food for Thought